the taste of perfection.

2011-11-29T00:40:00.001+08:00

Had fun with Estelle and May Lyn last week! (:

Photoshoot!

Here's some of the pictures, much thanks to Estelle.

Holiday!

2011-11-24T02:33:00.001+08:00

I've got the Extra WOW Lash from Yuberactive and did a review for them :D
YAY FREEBIES.

For those who haven't heard about Yuberactive, you guys should check it out and sign up.

You might get to win movie tickets and get stuff from them to review just like me (:

Anyhoo! I'm now on a very very super long holiday. 4 whole months. This means I'm gonna have to rot at home during the day and stuff myself with more movies.

Watched a couple of movies at the cinema this past few weeks.

Real Steel!

I personally think it's a very good movie. Maybe 8/10? Am not gonna go on telling more about it cause I'm sure some of you haven't watched it and I wouldn't wanna spoil it for you guys.

Immortals!

It wasn't a bad movie, but our cinemas just made it so bad. For those who havent' watch this, please do not go to the cinemas to watch it. To much, too much censorship. Wait for the DVD, it'll be worth it!

and the only movie I haven't watch but REALLY REALLY REALLY wanna watch.

You are the apple of my eye.

There's so many version of trailers in YouTube and I've watched them all. I don't know whether I've spoilt the movie for myself haha. Hope I can watch it soon ): cause even until now the theaters are all full.

There comes to a point in life when you just feel like stopping.

someone like you.

2011-11-07T20:16:00.001+08:00

Beer Factory, Sunway Giza

so much work, but so little time.

I hate it that when I have assignments I just HAVE to wait until the last minute and let the due date be my motivation to finish it fast. Not a good habit, I admit. Tons of assignments due this week but still tried to dig out some time to spend with loved ones (:

So many 21st birthdays to attend this year, making me feel a little old. Just the thought of turning 21 next year is quite exciting but it also means Uni is gonna end soon and I'll have to say hello to the real world.

Han Siong, ze birthday boy. & Estelle.

Life's tough dear, we all know that.

It takes the right person to advice you until you are ready to accept that the truth hurts.

People come and go, and everything happens for a reason.

Stay strong, and smile.

It's going down.

2011-11-03T17:07:00.000+08:00

I tried so hard to be strong but all I ever do is fail.

I keep telling a friend of mine. "It's time to think of your own benefit, that's the least you owe yourself."

I really wish I could tell myself that too.

I wish I had the determination, I wish I had the courage.

I wish someone was there to push me.

I wish you would listen when I talked to you.

I wish you would realize when I am speaking from the bottom of my heart.

I want to yell all my problems away, cause right now I feel suffocated and I can't seem to breathe.

Sometimes I ask myself, what am I even hanging on to?

I knew it's time, time to let it all go. Time to let it all fade away that only memories are left.

I'm Back!

2011-11-02T16:56:00.000+08:00

For this past year, I've been asking myself whether I should continue blogging. It's almost a year since my last post, and now I finally decided YES I SHOULD!

Well for me, blogging isn't really about letting the public know what I've been up to or so. To me, it's more about expressing my feelings here when I don't have anywhere else to express. That's why most of my blog posts are most of the time very emotional. People don't complain when they're happy do they?

Well of course sometimes Ido blog to share what I've been up to... but you get what I mean.

A lot has happened this past year. People come and go, people grow.

Well if you guys don't know, I have a dog and he's 1 years old already :D

His name is Coco, a toy poodle, and extremely adorable as you can see!

Me, posing. Finally with longer hair now.

Me, posing again. Was trying out this cool app from Google Chrome called 'Webcam Toy'.

We're now together for 18 months (:

the bunch that never fail to make me laugh hard.

People say we look alike, but nyah I don't think so. Here's May Lyn (:

SISTA!

ALSO! I continued my Contact Lens business. You guys can check it out over here.

Not only selling GEO Lens, but also a new brand called Beuberry (:

Do support!

till then (:

is it really meant to be?

2010-11-13T02:55:00.000+08:00

I tried to hold on but it's not enough,

I tired to forgive but it's not enough,

to make it all okay.

It's funny how in every relationship, there's always one who cares less and one who cares more.

and sadly, the one who cares less always wins, and I mean always.

It sucks big time, but that's life and we're supposed to suck it all in and deal with it.

So often we find excuses for our partner just to make ourselves feel better.

Not wanting to accept that they don't deserve our forgiveness.

Not having any balls or guts to let them go.

Not wanting to throw everything away because we want it to work really bad.

Not wanting them to only realize when it's too late.

Every time we think of separating, all the what ifs comes out.

Filling up your whole head with all what if questions.

What if he really change?

What if he finally realize?

What if he really loves me?

What if he couldn't live without me too?

Even tho knowing it's all bullshit, we still don't wanna face reality.

Life's unfair like that.

In fact, nothing is fair at all.

Isn't it?

No matter how much we give in, it feels like it's never enough.

You start wondering if the problem is you or it's really just your partner.

People couldn't resist taking others for granted.

Everyone deserves a second chance,

but really, the moment you give a third chance,

sorry wouldn't mean as much anymore.

How many chances you need to give in order to make a relationship work?

People only realize when it's too late, that's always the case.

So what in the world are we suppose to do to make things right?

till then.

xo.

2010-11-11T15:31:00.000+08:00

'Sometimes I wonder why I even bother.'

Things has been real bad. We have no more classes but four more assignments to hand in.

Holiday doesn't end until next year February or March I think.

Who cares, all I know is that it's next year and it is too-freaking-long.

I came here to express how I feel again,

but I'm lost of words.

till then.

xoxo

it's ending, isn't it?

2010-11-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

Truth is, I haven't been feeling very happy about everything recently.

Whether it's my work in uni, relationship with friends or boyfriend.

It's as if nothing feels right anymore, feels like I have no one to go to.

and here I am, expressing myself by blogging, hoping I'll feel better like all the other times.

Arguments, arguments and more arguments which kills me.

I'm so lost I have no clue what to do.

I don't want to let go, yet it feels so hard to hold on.

Everyone else seems to be busy with their own life, their own problems to handle. It's like everyone feels the same way - not wanting to add on more troubles for others, so we all tend to have less heart to heart talk sessions. Everyone's drifting apart.

I used to be able to blog better when I'm feeling down cause I have so much to say and express.

But now, I'm just speechless.

I miss you,

I miss all of you.

time flies, it really does.

2010-10-21T16:19:00.001+08:00

I AM BACK PEOPLE! :D

Much apologies for the hiatus.

We finished our second wave of assignment last week so I'm like taking a break FOR AWHILE, cause the last wave of assignments are coming up and things are gonna get busy and stressed up again ):

So I went to Kuantan with my family last weekend to attend my mummy's company annual dinner which was held at the Swiss Garden Resort.

Every year they have themes for their dinner and it was Waka Waka Welcome to Africa this year. Obviously due to the World Cup thingy.

I didn't really get to enjoy the stay at the hotel because it was only one night and the pool smells like pee. Yes, I know, effing gross, but the beach was okay. I think the weather was too hot and even the sea water was warm. First time in my life I wasn't complaining feeling cold in sea water.

It's gonna be the 6th month with baby tomorrow (:

Time flies, really. It feels like it was just weeks ago we started going out.

Despite all the obstacles and big fights we've been through, I want you to know I never regret giving it another shot, after 6 years. (That's if you're even reading this -_-)

I love you!

AND, for those who have a Tumblr account.

Check mine out and follow me!

Built to Last

till then.

xo.

what went wrong?

2010-10-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

I think maybe something is really wrong with my stomach. I always get indigestion and it takes two days for me to recover from ONE gastric. Who the hell needs 2 freakin days to recover from gastric? So I've been sick on and off for the past week and it really doesn't help at all because SO MANY assignments are due the next 2 weeks. I have 2 assignments due Monday and 1 presentation on Tuesday.

Life is great.

Thanks God I felt a LITTLE better when it was time to attend Steph's (my cousin) birthday dinner at Vanity Mansion. First time going there tho. I know, jakun much. The place was not bad, especially the toilet, it was humongous, no joke. My sister was holding the camera the whole time and she didn't take any pictures of the toilet so I can't really show you how it looks (:

After dinner, all the parents, uncle and aunty, grandparents and the underages left the place for Steph to party with her friends and also us, cousins. Except my sister since she's only 15 haha! It wasn't exactly fun because her friends were all ... hmm lets just say older than my age, or maybe much older. and plus, I couldn't drink because I was sick.

will be watching Dinner for Schmucks with Nigel later on at Mid Valley (:

Hopefully it's gonna be good cause I couldn't watch Eat, Pray, Love or Charlie St. Cloud ):

I should really finish up my assignments ):

till then!

xo.

still trying, but barely breathing.

2010-09-27T17:44:00.000+08:00

Two days of working with Digi was TIRING.

Supposed to work from 10-10 but because of the standby and etc etc,

so we had to standd for almost 14 hours.

Crowd was crazy as usual, more than 1000 units were sold. I guess wherever you walk now you can see people using iPhone 4.

ze girls (:

Couldn't take more pictures because we were really busy the whole time.

People kept coming in non stop, even after 10.

For those who missed the Digi event and want to purchase the iPhone 4 with iDigi plan, proceed to Solaris Mont Kiara because apparently they still have stock over there (:

I really thought things are finally working out just the way it should. Sometimes I'm just so tired of trying anymore, but the minute I think of our good times I try so hard to hold on. Is it because we're not compatible or it is just cause we're giving in too much to each other? I wish I knew what to do to make things all better. Don't leave me alone to do all the work, we're in this together.

So many series to watch but so little time,

Two and A Half Men

Gossip Girl

One Tree Hill

Brothers & Sisters

How I Met Your Mother

Glee

and I have plenty of movies in my external which I haven't watch.

I wonder when will I finish watching them haha.

Assignment datelines are coming up again from next week onwards.

I really hope I don't procrastinate this time and leave it all to the last day. I HOPE.

till then.

2010-09-25T02:37:00.000+08:00

Met up with Esther, Kah Joon and I-Ting at Picadilly since I-Ting was leaving for London already and we didn't attend her farewell :(

It's amazing how we knew each other since primary school and we still keep in touch until now. Even though we're not as close as we used to be but at least we're still talking (: drifted apart during high school but still managed to enter singing competitions together during our first and last year of high school - CHS Idol. It was REALLY fun! :D I really miss primary days tho, when we were all still so naive and we only knew how to have fun and not worry about anything else other than not getting good grades.

I-Ting, if you're reading this,

I hope you have a blast over there and don't get too naughty like I said in my text :p

Don't remember to call when you're back okay! <3

Went over to Pavilion at night to watch The Legend of Chen Zhen with the boyfriend.

The action parts were good, but the love story was boring.

Gonna be working over the weekend for Digi as mentioned in the previous post. So I guess I'll be updating after my work ends cause it's a freakin 10-10 job. It's 2:30am now and I think I should try to get some sleep (:

till then.

I see sparks again (:

2010-09-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

As we all know, iPhone 4 has finally arrived Malaysia after so long!

Rates have been officially revealed by both Maxis and Digi.

Honestly, I don't really like iPhone 4 cause of its shape, I think it's too squarish.

but of course the best part of the phone is that it has flash and also a 3g camera (:

I'll be working at Quill BMW showroom this weekend for the Digi roadshow for the launch of iPhone 4.

Go check out Digi's official website for the promotions and stuff like that.

After training for work, I rushed back and attended Sze Yiing's surprise birthday dinner.

We ate at Secret of Louisiana, some restaurant at Kelana Plaza I think, I couldn't really remember because Nigel was driving and I wasn't concentrating on the road (:

The place was really nice, first time going there. Actually I didn't even know the existence of the plaza haha.

Didn't get to take pictures of the birthday girl with birthday cake cause we were late ):

I remember those days where I kept complaining during the holidays that I wished I had assignments to do. Now, I'm drowning in my pile of assignments I feel like dying ):

I'm so lazy to do anything at all. Everything is writing, writing and writing.

and the fact that we're so good at procrastinating makes it so much worse because it ends up with doing research, and writing 1k+ words over one night.

I REALLY hope I don't fail anything throughout my whole 3 years of degree if not my parents would kill me.

People always say Mass Comm is the easiest course, but seriously, try taking the course. I bet you'll regret saying that it's the easiest! :p

Now it's time for Glee season 2 (:

till then.

the restart button.

2010-09-22T00:48:00.001+08:00

So, I've decided to start blogging again.

I know it's been quite awhile since I blogged. I have many reasons why I stopped but one of them was because I opened a Tumblr account and yes, it's AWEOMSE (:

so whoever who has a Tumblr account, please do follow me.

Just so all my readers know,

I've already started my Bachelor of Arts in Taylor's University College.

And, I've been in a relationship with a guy (5 months today) (:

I've been super duper busy with assignments since it's 100% assignments and we have no exams.

Of course every relationship has its ups and downs.

Whether it is friends or boyfriends or even family.

To be very honest,

I think that my relationship with my best friend has drifted very, very far apart,

and at some point I don't even know if we can save it anymore.

I guess, that's life.

till then.

it's true, sometimes I wish you would just leave,

and never turn back because I couldn't do it on my own.

I'm selfish, I know.

all i ever did was try.

2010-04-12T21:49:00.004+08:00

This was actually suppose to be a post I wasn't gonna post up.

But I'm just gonna take parts of it.

or rather one part?

I've been thinking, "how were you able to do it?" Giving us up for good. I thought we were worth more than that. You come and go like I don't mean anything at all.

What happened to the responsibility we were supposed to share?

What happened?

It doesn't matter anymore, does it?

even fairytales have endings.

2010-04-05T18:30:00.003+08:00

Forgive me,
It's too much to bear.
Emotions weren't suppose to be effected this badly,
But I'm letting it.

I think,
I should love myself more.
I've done my part,
even more than I needed.

It's time I stop.
Whether you're gonna make it happen again.
It's all up to you.

You used to shine so bright,
but I watched all of it fade.
You didn't need to give me anything to fight for,
cause you being you, it was all worth it.

Now I look into your eyes,
I realize,
you're actually gone.
You're gone.

I got used to living without you.
I'm just gonna be happy.
I wish you well.

努力地对自己好.

stranger.

2010-03-30T23:37:00.002+08:00

I don't know you anymore.

It was never about who was gonna win or lose.
Friendship was supposed to be treasured.
The only reason why friends know dark secrets about each other
is because they have trust for each other.
You tell those darkest secrets of yours out of trust.
Even if it's not a dark secret, any secret will do, it was all out of trust.
The saddest and most disappointing part is when one party decides it's alright
to just flush all of the many years friendship down the toilet bowl,
and then make use of your secrets, your trust,
to go against you and turn their back at you.

Nobody should be condemned in any way.
Even if mistakes were made, it was part of growing,
it was meant to be a lesson learnt.
It is a way of changing into a better person.

You people forgotten how we treasured all of our friendships.
We treasure them more than you can ever imagine and don't betray that.
Dealing with disappointments is tiring,
so stop disappointing people who really cares or at least used to.
Even if this is going to make you laugh or tease,
it actually hurts us to know what you are doing.
Because we don't know you anymore.

Are you happy now?

if you only knew.

2010-03-29T18:50:00.003+08:00

Smile, is what I wanna do.

Happy, is what I wanna be.

Love, is what I wanna feel.

Went out with the girls last night and also just now (:
Chilled at Tarbush whole afternoon cause Tasha wanted shisha.
Zhu Sien introduced Monopoly Deal to us.
Now we have a new game to play at Simon's!
even tho Neno and Tasha didn't like the game cause they were blur and they couldn't win!

College won't be starting until Wednesday.
Another one last day of holiday tomorrow.
but I still can't wait for college to start.
Whether's it's a form of distraction or a way to fill my free time,
or even to spend time laughing my ass off with the girls.

I REALLY wanna upload pictures from our outings but Zhu Sien has all the pictures!
and with her being the only one having the pictures,
God knows when will we even be able to see them.
till then (:

What if?

catch me.

2010-03-25T22:37:00.003+08:00

Somehow, a lot of thinking has been done today, such a tiring day.
Thinking back on all my past relationships,
the way I handled things when all of it ended.

It's funny how people can go so low and the sudden lost of all pride and dignity just for love.
Yes, I used to beg and cry day and night for my ex boyfriends to come back when the relationship ended.
I know, pathetic much, but that was how I was back then.
It was so hard to accept the fact that what you once treasure and love so much is long gone,
no longer the same, and it's time to let go, and move on.

Like they say, everything has its first.
And this time, it's my first,
that I had to go through a heartbreak on my own.
No one else to fall back to, or rather I realize I just shut everyone off.
I needed the silence, needed the space to think things through.
Yes, he is that important to me.

And it was tough,
I couldn't sleep,
I couldn't eat,
there was too much pain to bear.

I don't know why it took so long for me to realize this,
but I realize that this time, I never begged.
He was so sure of what he wanted and how his priorities have changed.
He knew what was gonna make him happy.
I didn't wanna get in the way, I didn't wanna make things hard for him.
I wanted him to be happy.
I didn't wanna be a burden.
I love you enough to let you go.

It's time.
I'm sure things will fall into place eventually.
and if we belong together, we will be. (:

I Love You, youknowido.

truth is, i'm screaming out.

2010-03-25T01:21:00.002+08:00

Feelings were all mixed up the moment I saw you.
I was telling myself the only way to make myself better is to blog,
but I had to attend a funeral just now.
Now, I'm back home, all ready to express,
Nothing's coming out.

My heart was pounding so fast I could barely breathe.
The way you looked at me, I know that look.
I'm sorry if I let you down, but I'm still trying.

imissyou, what about you?

can you lift me up?

2010-03-20T16:48:00.004+08:00

:D :D :D :D :D
College is finally starting soon.
ONE MORE WEEK TO GO.
I'm so excited.
I hope we don't shift to lakeside so soon! ):
one of the main reason is because of the food there, everyone's complaining.
Car park is not an issue for me since I don't have a freakin car (dad don't wanna buy for me) -.-

Just received a text message from Zhu Sien.
ATTENTION TO ALL LCS PEOPLE!
We'll be moving to lakeside campus after the one week holiday during April 19th.
IT IS CONFIRMED.*fuck*
(:

I don't remember the last time I feel life is this tough.
I guess it's a phase everyone has to go through.
Always thought practice makes perfect,
We've all been through this before so many times,
why does it still feel as painful as ever.
Everyone seems to be tired of all the crap and bullshits.
I guess we all just need a break.

Did I say something stupid?
There goes one more mistake.
Do I bore you with my problems?
Is that why you turn away?
Do you know how hard I tried
To become what you want me to be?
Take me,
This is all that I've got
Allison Irahet - Scars

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to God that I don't believe in.
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I suppose to do when I'm all choked up and you're okay?
I'm falling to pieces.
The Script - Breakeven

lost.

2010-03-16T00:55:00.002+08:00

I want you and only you to have the better me.
Don't you get it?

in another life

2010-03-12T02:45:00.001+08:00

I have known you my whole life
When you were ten, you said you'd make me your wife
Eight years later you won me over
Just as I took the world on my shoulders

I got used to living without you
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you
Always said that you were my man to be
But I guess I was in love with your memory

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life

I know I said that I would keep my word
I wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were
I'm sorry I can't be your world

The way you're holding on to me
Makes me feel like I can't breathe
Just let me go, just let me go
It just won't feel right inside
God knows I've tried

You know I love you, you know I do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life

wipe it away.

2010-03-11T19:35:00.003+08:00

I gave you up because I thought you deserved better,
but then I realize I'm a better me when I'm around you.
- My Best Friend's Girl

Don't forget,
I Love You.

long gone.

2010-02-24T20:27:00.004+08:00

We celebrated Neno's birthday 2 weeks back at MOS.

I know, I know, it was ages ago.
but stupid facebook wouldn't let Zhu Sien upload the photos so I only got all the photos last night. (:

It was one great night.
but of course the stay over at Tasha's place was even better!
We surprised Neno with a cake! (:
and also a handbag which she thought was for Zhu Sien,
and a lace jacket which she thought was sold out the next day she went and buy it.
this is how much we love you Neno! (:

more pictures on facebook! (:
Neno's Birthday
The Stay Over

As they say, relationships come and go.
but friends will remain as friends always.
Yes, it's true.
Unless that certain friend of yours isn't the person you knew anymore.
I'm disappointed, really disappointed.
but I guess it's okay cause the girl he used to love was dead long time ago.
i wish you well.

it's about time.

2010-02-10T11:58:00.003+08:00

they asked if you were my other half, if you were my best friend, if you were everything.
it was a yes, without any doubt.

So it was the last day of finals today (:
that was the end of my 2nd semester.
one more semester left and I'm gonna start degree!

went out with the crazy people today after exams (:
shisha-ed for almost 4 hours.
it was one hell of a crazy day. laughed till we all had stomach aches or cramps.
but it was worth all the time and money. (:
at least it made me get my mind off things.

tasha, neno, debbie.

sien, hannis.

debbie, neno.

thanks to Neno,
more than half of our pictures are gone because she ACCIDENTALLY deleted it.
how nice of her.

I'm having one a half months of sem break now.
so if anyone would like to catch up please do ring me up! :p
till then.

Should I give up?
or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
or would it be a waste?

you changed my whole life.

2010-01-27T20:17:00.002+08:00

the right thing is always the hardest thing to do.

it was hard for me to make such a decision.
i shall practice what i preach, time heals.
and this is when friends will be there for us.

I didn't want us to burn out.
I didn't come here to hold you,
now I can't stop.
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in,
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive.
You know that I love you so,
I love you enough to let you go.
I want you to know that it doesn't matter,
Where we take this road someone's gotta go.
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better.

i wish you well gummy. (:

it was you and me.

2010-01-19T17:00:00.003+08:00

"I see your true colors,
and that's why I love you"

It's been so long, so long,
we've known each other.
We were not just any ordinary friends,
we knew each other so well, so well.

I know,
as time passes by,
people grow apart,
heading towards different directions.

"if this world makes you crazy,
and you've taken all you can bear,
you call me up,
because you know I'll be there"

Darling,
I'm just a phone call away.
Despite how ignorant I may be.
I'm always here to hear you out.

I apologize for the times I let you down,
I didn't mean any of it,
you managed to push me to the right track,
yes you did.

At times,
it's just tiring and painful,
to see what I've been seeing.
I just wanted the best for you.

I may not be the best person to judge,
but I am saying it out of care,
out of love,
I just wanted the best for you.

"it's hard to take courage,
in a world full of people.
You can lose sight of it all,
and the darkness inside you,
can make you fell so small."

Maybe I love you too much,
Maybe I care for you too much.
It was all nothing but good intentions,
Just so if you forgotten,
I'll always be here for you.

i never knew.

2010-01-06T23:49:00.002+08:00

You're the best thing I never knew I needed.

It's almost a year now, since the day we met each other at a surprise birthday party I organized. I remember those days when we would both stay up till 5-6am in the morning just to webcam and talk to each other. Those were the days when we wanted to get to know each other more. You would put down your pride and do all sorts of silly things just to see me smile. and really, I miss those days.

It wasn't long till we had to face obstacles. It was all hard times but you still stood by me and went through it together with me. I am sorry I didn't appreciated all those times and I made you feel that I took you for granted. You felt that I took you for granted, I took your love for me for granted, I took your trust for me for granted, and I took all the chances you gave me for granted.

I thought NS was gonna be the biggest obstacle we had to face since we would be away from each other for 3 months. It was hard, I missed you every single day till I wrote to you, sent you text messages telling you what happened even though I knew you would only receive them during the weekends. There are still some that you haven't seen tho (: I was so excited when the weekends came. I would just hold my phone everywhere I go. Waiting for you message telling me you got back your phone.

And I thought wrong, NS wasn't the toughest of all. I'm really sorry I got you into all these mess. I know you didn't sign up for all these and you deserve better. I apologize if you really felt that I screwed up your life and make you regret anything you've done for me or with me. I'll try my very best to make you feel I do deserve you. I can't control what's gonna happen next of course, but I'm changing, for you, for me and for us.

Don't shut me out baby, we need to go through this together.
I Need You.
I Love You.

come back, love.

2010-01-05T21:09:00.003+08:00

Been spending two whole days watching this Taiwan drama series.

It's been so long since I last watched Taiwan drama cause I got bored of it.
All the Taiwan drama are all the same -.-
Surprisingly this is DAMN GOOD.
for those who don't know mandarin, too bad, for those who do,
PLEASE GO AND WATCH IT. (:

I'm having Mid-Terms next week and I haven't started studying.
I told myself I would start this week but I couldn't stop watching movies.
AND i just realized i actually have loads of work to finish up.
i think the holiday mood must stop NOW.
I AM SO LAZY ):

I shall go decide now whether to study, finish up my work or continue watching movie :p
till then! :D

if you call me today,
I'll say that I'm fine,
but I bet you can't tell,
by the tone of my voice it's just a lie.

hello 2010

2010-01-02T02:13:00.008+08:00

and it was New Year's Eve last night. (:
There goes 2009.
Honestly, i didn't like 2009 at all. Of course there were things that was worth remembering. but the bad ones are just really, i don't even know the word. Fucked up maybe?
Overall, bittersweet memories. met so many awesome people this year (: you guys know who you are.

when i sit down and try to think what really happened this whole year, i realized it really passed by so damn fast. it's like as if i didn't even have the time to just sit down and relax. even tho i had 7 months of holiday because college only started July. or maybe it was because i was out almost everyday like my mom said. it's either that, or this whole year was filled with fortunate and unfortunate events. however, everything happens for a reason. i believe it was all for the better since lessons were learnt.

Life is tough as they always say. but what doesn't kill you just makes you stronger. and it was these people who never failed to be there for me whenever i need a shoulder to cry on. whenever i feel like my whole life is tumbled upon me. they were always the for me. regardless of what i do or how bad the situation is and even if they were to be standing in the most difficult position. they were always there. (:
and i love all of them, so so much.

Koh Esther.

Lim Zhu Sien.

Debbie Goh Pei Chen.

Elyse Kymberly Teoh Su Fern.

last but not least,

Ong Koh Kwun.

of course there are others who stood by me too.
and i thank all of you from the bottom of my heart (:

So long 2009.
Hello 2010.
Happy New Year people.

my grown up christmas list.

2009-12-29T03:54:00.003+08:00

Finally! (:
Christmas - my favourite holiday season.
celebrated with family and loved ones <3
and guess what!
i CAN'T WAIT for 2010.

we came this far.
ups and downs,
laughter and tears.
it's getting more complicated than it already is.
i don't know how to feel anymore.
guide me.

i reached out my hand for you,
you weren't there to hold me,
now, don't blame me for leaving.
you just proved them right.

you said you know me better than all of them,
you know i'm not like what they said,
so why start judging now?
all those words was just so i will trust you?
they were right.

i've always been there for you,
regardless of what you do,
i saw you walking towards the wrong path,
i tried to guide you to the right one,
you didn't let,
if you're not gonna help yourself,
no one can,
i don't know if i can be there for you anymore,
i tried,
i'm sorry,
you're on your own.

christmases when you were mine.

2009-12-14T18:41:00.002+08:00

HEYYYYYY! :D
sorry for the lack of updates!
I AM BACK!

1 month holiday for us Foundation in Mass Comm students.
but we'll be having our mid terms right after the holiday ends ):
but it gives us no reason to not enjoy our holiday!

Christmas is next week and I'm so excited!
decided to bake cupcakes for my house Christmas party.
EXCITED!
i still haven't done my Christmas shopping! ):
lets hope there's enough time to find the perfect gift for all my loved ones. <3

Life has been really pointless for me these days I don't know why.
It seems like I couldn't find any purpose anymore.
haha fuck being emo (:
Thank god i have great friends around me to keep my mind off things most of the time.
i love them all!

Debbie's coming over soon and we're heading to Pasar Malam! :D
till then!

I never wanna see you unhappy,
I thought you wanted the same for me.
I'm trying not to think about you,
Can't you just let me be?

2009-12-05T04:10:00.002+08:00

it seems to be true that when shit starts to happen,
whole loads of shits happen at the same time before things get better.
and that's exactly what's happening now.
shit happens.

relationships.
why is there deterioration stage in every relationship?
and that's when you choose to take repair or dissolution.
am tired of relationships, literally.
can't feel shit anymore no matter how harsh words are.
it's sad to see relationships built fall apart over and over again.
it's tiring to build new relationships over and over again.
or maybe, i'm just tired of guys.
maybe, it's time to try out girls. (:
am not joking.

i still don't understand how people just leave without saying anything.
i know, they always say people come and go.
but everything needs a closure right?
people can't just give you hope, and then decide to leave the next day without telling just cause they feel bad for changing their minds suddenly.
unfair, it is.

i seriously need a break.

how could you?

2009-12-03T00:04:00.001+08:00

Walls Rebuilt.

How could you do this to me?
I'm gone.

dejavu.

2009-11-28T20:22:00.003+08:00

and we keep believing things would be different.
same shit different guy.

didn't it mean anything to you at all?
or are you as heartless as they tell me.
I chose to trust I chose to believe.
you took it for granted, you took me for granted.

what does it mean when a guy says
"I love you, but I just can't be with you."

I thought it was suppose to be
"if he really likes you he would do anything to make it happen."

stay with me.

2009-11-23T01:05:00.002+08:00

If you stay with me,
We can rule the world.

Went up to Genting last Tuesday with few of my college mates (:
I used to go up Genting like average once a month with my family last time.
I got so bored of Genting, like really bored.
But I had a great time up there that trip (:
Special thanks to Didi, Andy and Afiq.

Semester 2 will be starting tomorrow.
I just got the time table from Debbie not long ago.
I almost cried when I saw it ):
I thought it was gonna be relaxing since we only have 3 subjects.
BUT NOOOOOO. We have classes EVERYDAY from 8am. *thumbs up.
A few warned me about having short semesters.
I guess this is a short sem ):
1st sem results came out last Friday.
Went to college to ask about college fees and checked my results at college too.
I was so sad. ): it wasn't good. AT ALL.
But I guess I'm lucky cause I didn't fail any subjects (:

You caught me and you left me hanging.

2009-11-15T02:36:00.002+08:00

I actually noticed for quite some time.
I only blog when I'm emotional.
I guess those are the times when I have something to say and I need to express it all somewhere.
That is also why most of the time when my posts are all emo, most of the people don't understand what the hell I'm typing. :p

One week of holiday passed by just like that.
One more week left and it's the start of second semester ):
Diploma students will only start their second semester next year.

Damn it.
It's actually sad to say sometimes I miss doing assignments.

Watched 2012 and Phobia2 with friends last night (:
2012 was okay but I thought that The Day After Tomorrow was better.
Phobia2 was just stupid. Stupid ending.
Somehow I knew it was gonna be a stupid horror movie.
Still couldn't beat Orphan or Shutter (thai)
I watched Orphan the other night and I freaked out.
The movie was so psycho I almost wanted to stabbed myself. LOL no shit.
Watched Paranormal Activity too.
Wasn't as scary as they said.
And it wasn't even a true story. -.- stupid Keith told me it was a true story.

OMG it's 3 30am.
Better wash up now and get ready for bed :p
till then.

wonders.

2009-11-11T19:31:00.002+08:00

I'm sure we have all fantasized our very own fairy tale.
Dreamt of our very own happy ending, happy marriage.
It's sad to say that now, I'm desperate for happiness.

Someone once asked me to give myself a chance to be happy.
Stop being a pessimist and just let go if I'm unhappy.
I did it.
Unfortunately I'm not any happier now am I.
As said before, when will we ever live our lives right?
People always say we learn from our mistakes.
So when will we stop making mistakes and able to have a simple and happy life.

So much courage was needed to say those words and make those decisions.
It was hard, real hard.
I guess this is what all of them call life.

please tell me this is what I really want.

2009-11-08T11:54:00.002+08:00

I just wanna play my cards right,
Please tell me what I'm doing makes sense.

Sorry for the lack of updates,
I know it's been so long since I had a proper update.
Just finished my finals last week! :D awesome.
but the thought of having 2 weeks holiday kills me ):
I know I'm gonna die of boredom and I'm gonna miss my college mates.

Was suppose to go gym just now but I slept at 5am last night now I'm so lazy ):
Went for breakfast at satellite with Keith, Wessley and some of their friends.
It's been so long since I went there! I don't miss high school but I definitely miss the friends. :D
Apparently I'm responsible for our high school gathering cause of my last visit to the hospital and they cancelled the gathering.
Will try to arrange a gathering soon (:

gonna go take my shower now and wait for mummy to go for lunch.
till then.

officially missing you.

2009-10-25T01:18:00.004+08:00

I'm so proud of myself cause I'm halfway done with IHC assignment :D
Can't procrastinate anymore since finals is in a week !

Went to Tropicana City for grocery shopping with the family.
KohKwun came in awhile and we watched Law Abiding Citizen.
I didn't expect it to be THAT good cause the poster looked kinda boring.
But since it was Gerard Butler so we watched it instead of the meatball show.

Watch it (:
It's really good.
Makes you go o.o

I dropped my laptop in college that day ):
I stood up and forgotten my laptop was on my lap.
The whole mamak looked and I didn't know people from upstairs looked too.
I was surprised when random friends came up to me and said "how's your laptop". fml.
AND THEN, Andy spilled teh o ice all over Debbie.
p/s: MY PHONE WAS THERE AND SOAKED WITH TEH O ICE TOO.
thank god my laptop was at the other side of the table.

Prom. Yes? No?

I should get some sleep since I have to go college.
It's sad I know, having to go college on a Sunday.
But I'm pretty sure it's gonna be fun!
till then. (:

I'm moving.

2009-10-21T22:05:00.003+08:00

So much work.
So little time.
):

I don't even know what to say to you anymore,
I'm so fed up.
Run along, I don't care.

BACK TO ASSIGNMENTS! :D

2009-10-19T02:34:00.004+08:00

They asked me if I want you around.
Yes I do.

Sorry for the lack of updates.
Been really busy with assignments and stuff.
I don't even have time to manage Second Skin ):
3 more assignments, 1 big project and finals in 2 weeks.
fuck college life -.-

MOS with the collegemates and of course Esther last Thursday (:

Please not let it be the biggest mistake of my life.
I really don't want to,
But I have to.

2009-10-08T01:28:00.001+08:00

I need you.

2009-09-26T18:39:00.002+08:00

It was one of those days when you feel everything's tumbling down.
You tend to wanna screw things up more just because the truth hurts too much and we don't wanna deal with it.
There's always this certain someone that manages to pull you out of the black hole.
Sometimes we just take advantage unconsciously wanting for more attention.
That's when they get tired and leave.

The kind of feeling where you have to look at them walk out of your door,
knowing you were the one to blame and having no rights to ask them to stay,
not wanting to admit the fact that we need them by our side telling us everything's gonna be alright,
we just keep pushing them further and further till they're gone.

When will we ever live our lives right.

The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore.

2009-09-24T18:37:00.002+08:00

It was my grandad's 82nd birthday (:
A crazy dinner I would say.
Some got really drunk and the whole party was like O.O
Lots of pictures but 80% of them are candids lol.

Had been rotting at home almost everyday ):
Nothing else to do and I actually still have 2 more papers but I haven't started studying.
Life has been really boring recently. -.-
Nothing much happened so I have nothing to update about.

So I shall go and play my Sims3 now.
toodles.

you left me behind.

and so I tried.

2009-09-15T15:13:00.003+08:00

Some of you might know I just got out of the hospital yesterday.
Had a minor surgery, nothing to be worried about (:
Thanks to those who took the trouble to come and visit, of course also to those who was concerned.
Thanks to my parents and also the boyfriend for taking care of me while I was in the hospital (:

It hurts to know that you would never be there ever again when I need you.
I guess it's time to move on.
I give up.

To all Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill fans out there.
It's the new season this week :D :D :D
Downloading the first episode on torrent now and I'm super duper excited to watch it.

Mid-Terms this Friday and I can't seem to study at all.
Got 2 weeks MC from the hospital but I guess I gotta go for the exam on Friday ):
Apparently the replacement test is always harder.
I wouldn't wanna take that risk would I.

Gotta at least try to finish up some work now (:
Toodles.

the one thing i tried to hold on to.

2009-09-10T01:03:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since I felt so vulnerable, so insecure. It was just a few days ago when I felt I was on top of the world. Tumbled down the day reality smacked my face when you updated me about what he said to you. All I really needed was extra care. I never ever thought you're locking me up. I'm sorry I failed.

And you, I miss you. I took the courage to send the text to you the other day. There was no response. Just like how he said, the picture was back then but things are different now. I tried to help. All you did was apologizing but not doing anything about it. I'm not the only one seeing it. We all care. I'm sorry I failed.

I wish you well.

2009-09-06T22:55:00.002+08:00

So much for Mass Comm is an easy course.
Freakin hectic course.
Didn't get to sleep for two nights in a row cause I needed to finish up my assignments.
More assignments to go and I'm going nuts.
that is one of the reason why I abandoned my blog for some time. ):
Mid term next two weeks and Finals start of Nov.
OHMYGOD.

I think I'm signing up for true fitness (:
gotta burn all the fats and keep fit!
plus I don't really exercise much so I guess this is good for my health -.-
WHEEEEEE!

Don't forget to check Second Skin as we have more awesome stuff for you.
And for those who is interested to purchase GEO Lens, I'm selling them too! CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP! :D

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2009-08-27T16:16:00.001+08:00

It was like chasing the very last train.

2009-08-24T01:51:00.002+08:00

It was always temptations that kills us.
Especially those challenging ones.

I don't care actually, I really don't.
I wasn't flattered then.
I guess it was the ego that got me disappointed when I got to know the truth.

What's with girls helping boys in their life to find excuses?
Does it really do good in any way at all?

We always predict what's gonna happen in the end.
Somehow, sometimes we know it isn't gonna be something good.
But yet, we still get our hopes up, praying hard we won't fall in the end.

Is it really always because it's worth it?
Or it was just because that very one time we felt like we're on the top of the world.
And we put aside the rest of the times when we don't feel that way.

Sometimes when people get jealous,
It's not really because they care.
It could just simply be the ego and pride that caused that jealousy.

Just because we want the attention,
We don't bother about the fact that we would hurt people that really care?

I wonder how you do it.
Seriously.

Hah. I just needed to pour out all these thoughts.
I guess menstrual cycle really makes one get really emotional, if that's what you call it.
Therefore, fuck menstrual cycles (:
I think most of you won't get what I just said.
Forgive me this time,
I'll make the next post a better one.
I promise (:

till then.

2009-08-16T22:36:00.002+08:00

As usual,
Movies over the weekend with the boyfriend (:

Watched G.I Joe at One Utama,
I think it was too much.
And the main actor who acted at step up 2, shouldn't act at G.I Joe. No joke.
His looks are toooooooo err. soft kinda guy.
Wanted to watch The Proposal instead, but there weren't any good seats available! ):

I think I really have to start studying before I fail my subjects and have to retake them again.
Work keeps coming in non stop!
Moreover, Batch 2 clothes of Second Skin just arrived, meaning extra work to do.
Gosh. NO MONEY NO HONEY PEOPLE!

Better continue with my work.
till then (:

i wish you well.

2009-08-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

Special post dedicated to dummie Ong Koh Kwun. (:
Happy Birthday boy!

Those times when you would snatch my camera away from me, turn it on, and go :
"FASTER FASTER TAKE A PIC OF ME!" :D

Those times when we would camwhore together,
take hundreds of pictures just to get one perfect picture with a perfect smile of YOURS.

Remember how we were always spontaneous?
We were bored and we just decided to bake cupcakes together. <3
BABY
I ♥ U
=)

Laughter we shared together.
Tears we shed for each other.
Times we had together.
I Miss You,
I Love You,
I Need You.

Happy Birthday.

I wish you well.

i like that boom boom pow.

2009-08-08T16:48:00.000+08:00

OMG i don't get it, why do i have SOOOO much work to do.
this is driving me nuts.

Orientation night last night! (:
Theme was back to school/back to old school.
I don't know which is it but who cares. it was awesome!
Dancefloor was mad.
Didn't really take much pictures tho.
I don't know why these days i don't touch my camera anymore even tho i bring it everywhere -.-
I didn't know all my classmates can really dance weh it was insane.
Even tho i left the college with the boyfriend with an unhappy mood.
But i guess the night ended well, in a way. (:

i know i looked like some office girl.
Was suppose to go Pyramid to get a tie cause i don't have any.
BUT THEN. it didn't happen so i just went like that without the tie TT

gonna bring the boyfriend out for dinner at OU soon (:
it'll be an early birthday dinner (:
i know we'll be having a great time whee! :D

toodles!

2009-08-05T22:42:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates.
Been really busy with I don't know what.
It's only the 2nd week of college and I'm already drowning with all the work I have.
I thought college was gonna be super fun but it's starting to feel so draggy already. -.-
I don't know if it's because I'm taking Mass Comm, but dramas are already happening.
And I really hope high school won't repeat itself.
Oh wells.

OH YA, I watched Harry Potter last Sunday with the boyfriend.
It wasn't as bad as they said lah -.-
It was just really creepy and dark that's all.
And no action with Voldemort.

I think I'm getting more lifeless nowadays, no joke.
Been doing nothing but work and spending money at college.
I'm so broke.
Stab me.

better continue with my work!
Will do a proper update soon, PROMISE! :D
till then. (:

until the end of time.

2009-07-29T19:46:00.002+08:00

It was times like that,
You wanted people you thought you could depend on,
to be there for you.
And when they don't,
it's when you realize you actually have no one to depend on.
The truth hurts.
I don't wanna be independent in that sense.

I just wished you knew.

2009-07-27T20:47:00.002+08:00

I can't believe I missed the first day of college today.
I had food poisoning ):
At first I thought it was only the usual indigestion last night that's why I went and puke.
Then I couldn't sleep the whole damn night and I kept sweating cold sweat.
Every single time I get food poisoning I seriously feel like dying -.-
Thank god I don't have class tomorrow so I have another day of rest :D
College will officially start on Wednesday for me then (:

Sometimes I wish.
Sometimes I dream.
Sometimes I hope.

Where are you?

2009-07-24T19:54:00.002+08:00

Second Skin!
Batch 3 is up (:
Check it out for more awesome stuff!

Classes are starting next week!
Got my time table that day from the student portal and my first reaction was O.o
I have 7 hours of classes a week. 1 hour each class.
It's okay if I have a car. But now I have to go to college for an hour and go back home -.-
I didn't know I could be this free when college starts.
Hopefully assignments and presentations won't kill me that's all (:

going for pool and murni soon (:
till then. (:

2009-07-19T20:54:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates people!
Not that I have been busy, just that nothing interesting happened that's all.
Life is boring most of the time.

Orientation tomorrow and I think class would be starting the next day, I don't think I'm ready.
Time flies, TOO FAST.
But then again, it's better having to go college everyday than to stone at home.
At least I have allowance if I have college right.

Shall update about college soon.
till then. (:

i was on the top of the world, guess not anymore.

2009-07-10T17:17:00.003+08:00

First of all,
I wanna thank all those who wished me (:
Whether it was through text, messenger, facebook or calls.
My birthday wasn't all that bad I guess since the night ended quite well (:
I can say it was the most random and spontaneous birthday ever, EVER.
Once again, thanks (:

It was never about who's right or wrong, or whose fault it was.
Your words means so much to me.
What you say or do, how much it actually effects me in all ways.
Since day one, I've always wanted to be the best for you.
I wanted to be good enough for you. But it was like I'm never good enough.
You've always said the smallest things matter.
It was all these you said that made me think this time it was gonna be different.
But what happened to your believe in that saying?
I know what you went through for me. I appreciate every bit of it.
I know you care. But sometimes I really need you to show it to me.
I wanna feel it, I don't just wanna know it.
I'm sorry. for everything.

2009-07-08T03:56:00.004+08:00

What a great day.
FML.

You and I Both. (:

2009-07-05T01:29:00.002+08:00

The boyfriend brought me to Tony Romas, Pavilion for my be-early birthday dinner (:
First time eating there tho, it wasn't bad I guess.
I had blisters all over my feet and I was walking around the mall with 5 inch heels.
Almost died. Especially the part when we forgotten where we parked the car.
Walked everywhere, and I couldn't find a single thing to buy -.-
Nice ones were all too expensive, or either no size.
I wonder why Forever 21 always run outta S size clothes. pissing off.
Thanks for the day baby (:

Gonna go for Cheer09 tomorrow! (:
Heard Calyx got top 15 today. :D
Sister went today, and she said their dance were really good.

Better go get some rest now.
Dead tired.
nights.

2009-07-04T03:35:00.001+08:00

Will I ever be good enough for you?

2009-06-27T15:50:00.004+08:00

According to CK, this is what stress does to him.
I was telling him the last Harry Potter will be coming out on 2011.

CK says (3:34 PM):
*so in 2011 time, confirm ar, I see u at GSC
*so in case we lost contact
*godknowswhy
*I see u there
*bat gin bat san
*2011
g i l l i a n says (3:34 PM):
*hahahahahahha
*o0o
CK says (3:34 PM):
*what what
*really la
*if one day wana find u bck
*I know where to find u
*everyday camp in gsc
*lol
*lol
*2011
*mahai
*how old ar me
g i l l i a n says (3:35 PM):
*hahahahahahahhah
*80 yrs old
CK says (3:35 PM):
*22 ni
*-.-
*80 still go there find u ar
*people think u my mistress weih
*walao damn romantic
*80 I found my crush
*can write story book loh
*I 80, u 78
*ok la
*we go watch harry together kay?
g i l l i a n says (3:36 PM):
*.............................
*u damn farni
CK says (3:37 PM):
*that time don buy pop corn ar. fucker dono 80 got diabetes or not
*fucking scared
*if Im still alive la
*than imagine we go smoke
*at the stairs
*fucking cool right
*I'll be the coolest old man u ever see man
*fuck now say also cant wait for 80 to come
*walau don wana get old so fast
*enjoy life while I can
g i l l i a n says (3:39 PM):
*..............
*...............
*................
*......................
*........................
*.........................
CK says (3:39 PM):
*walao fucking speechless
*-.-
*than sit in my lambor ok ?
*80 can still drive
*we go look out point again larh
g i l l i a n says (3:39 PM):
*im so gonna post this on my blog.
*like serious.
CK says (3:40 PM):
*maybe that time got bridge to genting
*damn near weih
*fuck la blame stress .
*not me
*this is not CK TALKING
*SO NOT CK .
*who are you

hah.
No wonder he said he always get themosttalkativeguyinclass award.

and I'm gonna show u how Esther's drawing looks like.
Condoms.
Normal, Feather light, Extra Safe,
Pleasuremax, Strawberry, Chocolate, Banana.
*thumbs up*

2009-06-27T00:37:00.003+08:00

Went down to KL with the 3 of them today (:
First it was Times Square.
We couldn't find anything there so we decided to walk over to Pavilion.
Baby was searching for his backpack for college which is starting on Monday.
Then we decided to watch Transformers 2.

IT WAS FUCKING AWESOME.
:D I like Bumble Bee. Haha.
Megan Fox wasn't THAT pretty in the show but she was hot tho.
Especially the scene where she was on the bike. O.O

Walked and walked and walked but still couldn't find his backpack.
So we left there and went down to Mid Valley.
We were all so exhausted, walking whole day.
I shall not go KL anymore unless I have lots and lots of cash to shop.
The place is. seriously damn. @@ I don't even know the word for it.
Anyways, bought his backpack at Mid Valley and went back home.

OH and. Esther stayed over last night.
HAHA it's been so long since she stayed over.
Used laptop till 4am and watched movie till 6am TT.
Another reason why we were so tired today.

Gotta run.

RIP Michael Jackson.

2009-06-22T02:51:00.004+08:00

Lets just hope and pray.
Things seems to be changing bit by bit.
I just need to know.

Say that you love me.

2009-06-21T00:01:00.002+08:00

Sister ♥ :D

Spent the whole day with the family.
Went all the way the Semenyih and had 'Sang Ha Min' for lunch.
Brought grandparents to check out Semenyih and Nirvana memorial park. =/
Ate Durian and Mangosteen ♥ on the way back.
The Durian was super and it was actually orange in colour. -.- weird.

Went al the way to Kepong to eat porridge for dinner -.-
I wonder why my family just loves to go to far far away places to eat.
We're gonna go to Ulu Langat for dinner tomorrow (Father's Day).
See, there you go again.
Gonna have more durians and mangosteens tomorrow. Yum.

Gah time to go on a diet.
Putting on weight again ):
Been doing nothing but spending and eating these days.
Somehow I hope college starts fast.
Even tho people always ask me to enjoy my holiday while I can.
But I have enough of holidays.
Wasted more than half a year already ):

I think I'm gonna die of boredom when the boyfriend starts his college.
Cause now all 3 of them, boyfriend, bimbo and stoner will have classes.
And I'll have to rot at home alone. GAH!
Maybe i should get a job.
Any jobs to intro? (:

Okay I shall go take my shower now.
Toodles people. (:

2009-06-20T00:26:00.003+08:00

The way you make me smile,
The way you make me feel.

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2009-06-15T21:11:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates people.

Went out with the boyfriend today (:
Cineleisure, Ikea, Curve, Ikano.
Had Kim Gary for lunch.
I can't even remember when was the last time I had Kim Gary.
I remember after PMR I was working at Ikano for my cousin.
I ate Kim Gary for breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner and supper.
No shit, I got so bored of it I stopped stepping into Kim Gary for god knows how long.

Was choosing between 17 again and Hannah Montana cause there wasn't any other nice movies to watch. and surprisingly there was quite a number of good comments about those two movies.
Heard so many friends saying Terminator is not that good and the boyfriend doesn't exactly watch horror movies.
Went there, stood there for 10minutes trying to decide, and the boyfriend saw the poster of State Of Play. I never even heard of it before but a few good actors was in it.
Then we decided to watch State Of Play -.-

ah. ok I lost my blogging mojo so I shall stop typing now.
byebye

In your eyes I wanna stay.

2009-06-08T01:36:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder.
If I was right all along.
I hope not.

2009-06-07T18:18:00.002+08:00

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2009-06-05T01:09:00.008+08:00

Came back from Bali 2 days ago but was too busy to update about it.
Bali was effing HOT, the weather.
Beach was nice. (:
Drivers were CRAZY.
Villa was AWESOME.
Clubs were okay, filled with ang mos. -.-
OH and I really dont like Balinese food. damn gross.
That's why we all ended up having western for every meal.
McD's sundae cone was only around 30 cents after conversion. -.- freakin cheap.
Nothing much tho, overall the trip was okay I guess.
Missed baby too much over there. ):
It was 2 bucks per text so it was impossible to text. ):

for more pictures click here! (:

Enrolled in Taylor's yesterday. (:
Will be doing Foundation in Communication over there.
July intake, anyone taking the same course too?!?! :D
Went over to TBS to meet up with Cathy and Vickie after that. (:
Then as usual, went out with the bimbos and the stoner again :D
Went over to 1Utama, Had Carl's Junior for lunch :D YUMMY!
Watched Angels & Demons

It was.. err. complicated @@
I think I gotta watch it one more time at home without any distractions. ehem
Then went over to Sunway Pyramid for dinner (:
Had KFC! OH MY GOSH. me favourite! :D :D :D
The guys went to the gym and me and Esther shopped shopped shopped.
Headed home after that (:

I think I should get some sleep now.
OH AND. hypocrites are going down. :D
toodles!

2009-05-30T02:18:00.005+08:00

Today was just AWESOME! (:
Other than the fact that I'm broke.

Boyfriend picked me up and we headed to Cineleisure.
Had McD's for lunch and watched Monsters VS Aliens.
I love the BOB. :D damn cute weh. the blue slimey jelly guy.
Parts of the show was funny tho.

Walked over to Ikea to check out some stuff.
I thought it was gonna be so fun going to Ikea.
BUT. Ikea's like a freakin maze. and I hate it now.
Like he said, we're the worst-sense-of-direction couple. ):
Had dinner at Italianese, since both of us were craving for beef.
Couldn't help it, so now we're even more broke.

Walked over to Cineleisure again to catch another movie.
Night at the Museum 2 :D
I loved the first one, the second one wasn't as good.
But of course it was still funny.

Headed down to Bangsar to meet up with the two newlyweds -.-
Went over to D'Heaven at Bangsar for Shisha and drinks.
I still like the place. (:
But I still don't like Shisha -.-
I prefer.... ehem *wide smiles*
Astin and Jia Cheng then came over.
Rushed back home cause someone had Cinderella curfew,
and and and. BECAUSE...
I haven't even pack for my Bali trip, which is tomorrow, or rather later.

Am suppose to sleep now but I just had to blog about today before I leave to Bali tomorrow.
(: gonna miss the bimbos and the stoner.
I'm gonna feel so weird,
suddenly not seeing them for 4 days when I see them almost everyday.
GONNA GO SLEEP NOW, I only have 3 hours of sleep TT
nights people.

p/s : gonna miss you baby. ):

2009-05-24T22:28:00.004+08:00

Yes, I'm certain.
I'm doing this.
It's worth it.
You're worth it,
More than you or anyone else can imagine.

1 thing,
2 do,
3 words,
4 you,
I Love You.

Adam Lambert - No Boundaries

2009-05-24T15:10:00.003+08:00

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p/s : Burn in hell for all I care.

2009-05-22T19:12:00.009+08:00

"I'm sorry, I can't do this anymore.
Take good care of yourself alright."
that was it,
stabbed through my heart
when you looked me in the eye and said it.

I don't wanna let this go...

I couldn't even get myself to hug you when you walked out that door.
I was scared that it was gonna be goodbye for real.
I was scared that it was gonna be the last.

And today, I did it, I hugged you.
and it was because....
I was afraid I was gonna miss the last chance hugging you.

I hate the feeling of waking up and realize it was all just a dream.
It felt so real, so true..

I wish..
I hope..

Don't give up just yet...
I don't wanna lose you.

2009-05-22T15:36:00.004+08:00

and it all went down the drain, shattered.
the fact that there's nothing i can do at all, kills so bad.
helpless, guilt, hurt, heartache.

it was once so perfect.
now, i have to stand where i am,
look at you walking away from me, further and further.

time travel, hasn't anyone invented something like that yet?
appreciation, why only when it's too late?
mistakes, why do we have to make them to learn and change for the better?
isn't there any other ways?
promises, apologies, regrets.

i wanna take it all back, every single mistake i made.
i wanna take it all back, every single time of pain i made u go through.
i wanna take it all back.

i wish you were here.

2009-05-21T16:46:00.005+08:00

Who would've thought it would turn out this way.
I thought we were gonna stay strong, and not give up.

Don't go....

Please,
Stay.

2009-05-18T21:26:00.003+08:00

It was Bryan's birthday yesterday.
Had BBQ at his place at night.
Parents took me and the boyfriend out for lunch at the afternoon
and showed us the way to my college too.
College, freakin far, don't even talk or ask about it.
the BBQ was kinda last minute planning thing.
SOME people just can't make up their minds I don't know why.
Thank god we picked Esther up after lunch and headed to Mid Valley.
Wanted to catch a movie but then got a phone call, we had to buy all the food.
Rushed like hell cause we had only two or three hours to get everything done.
and rushed back to my place to marinate.
Thanks for helping out Esther (:

The bimbos.

Lady Lala. *inside joke* :D

Went for orientation this morning.
Thank god i had the boyfriend and Esther accompanying me. (:
I don't even know why I went there.
I just went there to take some stuff and went back home -.-
Wasted petrol, time and we ALL woke up so damn early.

Went to see his new place on the way to AC (: NICE! NICE!
Had lunch at AC and watched them both playing few rounds of pool.
Headed to pyramid after that.
Watched Star Trek. not a fan but it was okay I guess?
I still don't like Syler from Heroes in that show. whatever his real name is.
Esther says he looks like a beaver. O.O
OH and the monsters looks like ....... :D

life is a big time bitch. period.
lets just hope things get better.
*crosses fingers*

Marie Digby - Spell

2009-05-15T23:00:00.006+08:00

♥
Like I said before,
You turned my world upside down.

Went over to KL to meet up with mom this morning.
FINALLY. I got my card replaced. (:
Went over to Pavilion after that for lunch.
I think they have the most expensive food court ever.
But food was nice tho. (:
Watched I Love You, Man.

Super hilarious. (:
We managed to get back to PJ without getting lost.
THANK GOD.
The whole KL looks the same to me.

Orientation next Monday ):
I don't even feel excited about college anymore.
They ruined everything.
Every.Single.Thing.
Sigh.

I NEED THE NEXT EPISODE OF ....
GOSSIP GIRL & ONE TREE HILL!

(:

It was what's best for all.

Sixpence None The Richer - There She Goes

2009-05-09T00:21:00.003+08:00

Forever & ever, we have each other :D

omg damn lesbianic weh wtf. O.O

Went to school this morning to see the cheerleading performance.
Routine was great but I think they were nervous so screwed up abit. :/
But overall it was okay I guess.

Went to Pavillion after that for some shopping.
Mother's Day shopping actually.
Wanted to head to Mid Valley after that but we got lost.
"I'm sorry! ): "
Went round round the whole world and finally got back to Federal.
Ended up at Sunway Pyramid instead.
Went to pyramid 3 days in a row. O.O
Got our mother's day gifts and headed back home. :D

Gonna have my last driving lesson tomorrow morning.
Exam is on Monday. OMG! ):
Super nervous.
I don't think I'm bribing.
So I'm really praying that I pass!

Gotta get some sleep now before I get scolding ):
Nights. (:

I know I let you down,
But it's not like that now.

2009-05-07T20:34:00.003+08:00

♥

Went over to Pyramid to meet up with Esther and Cathy just now. (:
Ate at Zanmai AGAIN.
I think I'm starting to get sick of it. ):

High school besties (:

CHS Sport's Day is tomorrow.
Gonna go there for the cheerleading performance (:
Heard they're really good now.
Gonna go shopping after that YEAH! :D
Dad's birthday on Saturday,
Mother's Day on Sunday.
OMG. I need more income.

Brothers & Sisters here I come! (:
toodles.

I thought so (:

2009-05-05T20:45:00.001+08:00

The minute I stood there, I felt it all.

2009-05-01T17:43:00.004+08:00

YESTERDAY NIGHT WAS AWESOME! (:
or rather this morning (:
It was the first time to MOS for the most of us.
Cathy lost her clubbing virginity to US! HAHA :D
MOS WAS AWESOME <3
Dance floor, Music, The people. EVERYTHING. was better (:
Almost EVERYONE gone all wild last night. It was crazy.
Drink dance drink dance drink dance.
and of course doing unexpected stuffs TT shoot me. AND ESTHER. LOL!
Saw so many unexpected people there tho.
And WE finally saw that certain someone when we were walking to MOS from Barcelona.
OH MY GOSH I TELL YOU. *stabs herself*
Ok I shall not talk about it here.
I forgotten to charge my camera so we couldn't take all the photos we wanted to ):
Here are some of the pictures.
More pictures on Facebook! (:

2009-04-27T00:50:00.002+08:00

I thought I was gonna be fine.
It was all well planned.
What happened to the plan?
I can't seem to remember what's the next step anymore.
I wish I was determined enough.
Cause now, it just made the pain even worse.

2009-04-22T12:12:00.003+08:00

Fucking masquerade.
Shoot me.

2009-04-21T20:49:00.002+08:00

Had my second driving lesson today.
Learnt slope, parking and of course 3 point turn.
Drove all the way to Segambut and back TT
At least I improved this time cause engine didn't die. HAH! (:

Another lesson tomorrow and the test will be soon soon soon!
College won't be starting till end of next month. Sucky.
Maybe I should find a job but I don't have any transport TT

I just realized, giving other people advices actually makes one realize a lot.
I guess it's all about growing up.
Been really undetermined lately, sigh.
I wish all those mixed feelings would just go away.
I guess it's cause it's been too long.

You would never know.

2009-04-20T21:56:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates.
Been too lazy to blog. haha

Had my first driving lesson last thursdays.
and it was FREAKING CRAZY!
First lesson, and I had to drive home all the way from damansara.
Went throught LDP, Federal bla bla bla.
The scariest was SS2 tho. Cars and people there are both CRAZY.
tak takut mati punya -.-
Next lesson will be tomorrow. (:
Can't wait to get me license!

Gotta go watch Brothers & Sisters (:
Toodles!

2009-04-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

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2009-04-10T21:17:00.002+08:00

Truth's out.
How could you?
ALL of you.

2009-04-06T18:26:00.002+08:00

Yes, we were wearing the same top. Long story :D

Went for Qing Ming yesterday. Tiring, as usual.
We left house at 7+ and only came home at 4.
So I spent the whole day climbing and climbing and praying that I won't fall off, hit my head on a tomb and then die.

Esther's starting college tomorrow.
Great. Now I have no one to accompany me being all lifeless. ):
Now we can't text like how we used to anymore. -.-
The whole world seems to be starting college.
Okay, maybe not the whole world but people I actually hang out with are all in college.

Will be spending all my time at home staring at my laptop screen watching movie after movie.
And of course also my driving lessons YEAH! (:
Excited Excited! *stomps*

OHYA, I forgotten to mention. We actually closed down the Music blog already ):
But another blog is coming up! soon soon. Online shopping site. (:
Second Skin :D

AND I CAN'T WAIT TILL MAY 9th!

gonna go watch another movie now. (:

For Once,
I'm actually doing it. (:

2009-04-03T12:37:00.003+08:00

Just a blink of an eye,
You're gone, again.

College won't be starting till next month.
Won't be getting license till the end of the month.
God knows when I'll get my car.
Thank god mummy bought me the laptop already! (:
I got the Compaq CQ45.
It's a HP Pavillion DV4 like I think.
But of course with better specs and it's cheaper by 1k -.-

Things are getting better day by day.
At least that's what I think. =/
Well I'm sure things will be with less yelling and screaming and shouting.
Well, it's for the best (:

Been feeling super lifeless lately.
Been staying at home rotting, stoning -.-
Watching movies after movies.
Nothing else better to do.

HAH! gonna go watch One Tree Hill now (:

Everything is gonna be just fine.
I promise.

2009-03-29T01:28:00.002+08:00

Went out with Esther yesterday (:
Went to Tropicana City for lunch and of course do some shopping.
Those who haven't been there.
If you love Nichii, go there. It's huge.
And there's a same sized Kitschen next to it too.
There'll be GSC coming up soon in there tho. Cool eyh?

Headed to One Utama after that for some more shopping since Esther couldn't find anything for herself.
Oh I forgotten to mention. We were suppose to go hunting for her formal wears that she needs for college. Poor girl :D
Walked the whole mall and she still couldn't find anything.
I still wanna give her two big slaps cause she made me spend so much! even more than her. and this outing was suppose to be for her. ugh.
ANYWAYS!
Watched Confessions of A Shopaholic. It was a funny show.
Then we went for TGIF. (:
Kah Joon and Brian joined us. haha.
We shared. cause as usual their portion freakin big -.-
After that Brian sent us home.
THANK YOU BRIAN! (:

Yes that was all I think.
Pictures will be up soon.
Just got back the comp and Adobe Photoshop is GONE.
Have to download it again and edit the pictures cause it was all too dark -.-

I'm happy (:

Say It Again,
Again.
And again.

2009-03-21T01:10:00.005+08:00

It's how you made me smile.
Don't make it past tense.

For once, prove them all wrong please. I kept trusting that you would change but it seems like it's all getting worse. It's like you never thought that you had to make up for what you did because I was always here. You felt love, felt important, felt wanted. I wanna feel the same way too. I wanna feel secured. I don't wanna hide under my blanket every night being so afraid it's all gonna happen again. Don't make the smile on my face go away. I don't wanna have to think about us and regret everything that ever happened.

Sorry for the lack of updates. My comp crashed AGAIN.
Sister spoilt the laptop. freaking adapter hit the screen and there goes the laptop. *thumbs up*
Now I'm just gonna have to wait for my comp to come back ): I miss it tho.

Things aren't as complicated as it used to be anymore. At least that's what I hope.
I THINK I'm getting better in handling all of it. At least that's what I hope too.
It's funny how sometimes you should just sit back and relax.
Eventually things would just fall into place. (:

I can't wait till I get my license. April -.- long time more to go.
Been feeling VERY frustrated about college.
I hate it when you have to decide decide and decide.
Everyone seems to be so firm with what course they're gonna take and which college.
bla bla bla.
I still don't know which college I'm going to.
Parents wants me to go ALL THE WAY to TARC which is at setapak.
So that they can save damn alotta money and freakin far.
I don't wanna drive there alone every single day and get stuck in the jam ALONE with an old secondhand car(parents said they will buy old car for me -.-)
So now I'm actually trying to look out for any other colleges that I can go to.

The best friend <3

I just had to post this picture up (:
I love it.
WOI JIMUI! I MISS YOU AH!

And I just realised it's already 2am.
comfy bed, here I come! (:

I Miss You,
Like a WHOLE lot ):

2009-03-12T23:09:00.002+08:00

SPM, it just killed the whole world.
Even those with good results.
As far as I know, it ruined everyone's lives.
Whether it's indirectly or directly.
No SPM no future? bullshit.

I think, alot of people is gonna be effected by this so called D-Day.
Hundreds, Thousands, or maybe even Millions lives are gonna change.
Because of this day.

Okay, screw it all.
I don't even know what the heck am I typing.
SPM killed the world.
enough said. (:

Just when I was convinced it was all gonna be fine. I guess the cycle is just gonna go on repeating unless someone stops it. I don't wanna be the one doing it. They warned me. I didn't listen. I'm still not listening. I need a closure. And not just you ignoring me whenever I ask. I'm trying, I really am. Can't you see? What did I do wrong? Don't blow it all away. When will I hear it from you instead of others? When will you stay put and be decisive? Stop making things harder when they already are.

Just when I thought it was the time of my life.
Stab me.

2009-03-09T00:35:00.001+08:00

One second, everything was in place.
The next second, I'm lost for words.

Turn around.

2009-03-06T21:09:00.004+08:00

When I look into your eyes..

So it was my first time clubbing last night. (:
I don't know why it's so unbelievable to some people but it's really my first time okay!
IMMA VERY GOOD GIRL!
It was OKAY lah. and Barcelona wasn't as bad as they said lar.
MAYBE there's wasn't THAT many lalas that night I don't know.
But all I kept hearing was MOS is super nice so I guess we're gonna check MOS out some day. (:

On Wed, we decided to go up to Genting. (:
Just the four of us.
We didn't do much up there but we had a great time.
More pictures will be uploaded when Esther, the retard, is able to upload all the pictures into her laptop. ==
HURRY UP ESTHER! I WANT THE PHOTOS!

OH AND I GOT MY COMP BACK! YEAH! (:

gonna go watch One Tree Hill now.
BYE BYE! :D

2009-02-28T17:16:00.003+08:00

It's all because I Love You.

I'm starting to get bored of my job haha.
oh wells. but it's not like there's anything else for me to do.
My comp is not back yet.
And I think my blog and my music blog is both dying.
I'm dying as well without my musics TT
And I need my comp back for photos! omg.

It seems like alotta friends around me.
Are all messed up.
Everyone, everything is all messed up.
It's all not the way it's suppose to be.
Me and Esther were just talking about...
How much things has changed in just a year.
How we were all so happy a year ago and everything was almost perfect.
I guess those times are the only thing that is keeping us standing strong now.
Cause it's all worth the try to get it all back.
Even though things wont be exactly the same but it could always get better right (:
EVERYONE, cheer up!

Last night was random. haha
Went for dinner with Esther, Brian and Kah Joon came after that.
Met up with Isaac and then Jia Cheng was there too.
Haha haven't seen all of them in ages.
Of course except Esther.
I see her every single weekday till she's getting bored with me.
HAHA the weirdest thing is that we can sit beside each other and text ==
AND we do that everyday.
Because we can't exactly talk about EVERYTHING in work right. *winks*

You'll realise, one day (:

2009-02-23T22:48:00.002+08:00

Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I FINALLY did my navel piercing (:
And esther did her tongue piercing.
We finally started the whole driving thing..
And we got our L license in a week =D
OH and we also went for karaoke session.
FINALLY. After craving for so long. (:

It's You. (:

2009-02-21T01:18:00.001+08:00

No more sad or emo posts as promised (:

GOT LOADS TO TELL! *screams*
will update SOOON. promise! (: